the difference between law and grace (i want kids under grace!), Christ in me my peace and good success (no longer afraid of days to come lol), new printer/scanner (grace again) and other things...

again i haven't been blogging for awhile.. but b4 i explain why i have to say this. if u don't understand the title, read on.. and know that my God (and urs if you're Christian or a Jew) is goood... of cos much more to come. some things haven't manifested yet..

k so the reason why i haven't really been blogging is because my [nice] lecturers gave us a long list of things to submit by monday. and til today i was stuck with the first one. but anw now i'm blogging bcos God is good. and bs was good too lol (just read on).

so let me start with national day, a boat called the white rabbit, lots of funny women who love to dance and sing (my mum's colleagues), quiet husbands, young children, (no one my age), a crew, a cute tall waiter and a delicious buffet. but my night was made by the two cutest guys i ever met in my life. gentlemanly and all. my dream... children.lol. meet aaron,8, and keith,4. i am in love with keith's smile. when he smiles, my heart melts faster than u can say "sooooo cute!".

i tell you these two kids are smarter than any other kid u've ever come across. keith can tell u anything and he will ask alot of questions (what happens to the boat when the string snaps?). basically he's not one of those kids u HAVE to try to think of a game to entertain them cos he'll entertain u. let me tell u this kid didn't have to be told who the waiter was to know who the waiter was. he needed a fork to indulge in the lovely american cheese cake i was eating so this tiny tot who's as tall as my waist went up to the cute waiter (who's at LEAST 1.9) and tapped him on the leg and got him to get him a fork. then he happened to drop his chewed up sweet on the floor being way too excited and went to get the same waiter to pick it up for him. haha!

when we were walking back to the carpark, there's this long path back where it's water on both sides (one side has a rail the other doesnt) and his mum kept walking towards the water side cos she was trying to talk to my mum yet walk ahead. and this sweetheart kept telling his mummy to walk inside and when she got pretty near (not that near) to the waters he let go of my hand and pushed her back to the side of safety. and all the girls go "awww!!".

aaron is a real cool guy. for an 8 year old he's really sociable and witty. witty really. when he first came, my mum introduced his mum to my dad, and after my dad shook his mum's hand, aaron stuck out his hand too! but my dad din see. BUT aaron tapped him on the shoulder and introduced himself. i was impressed! good kid this one.

this is like the length of a normal blog entry. but i don't care. it's only the beginning.

their mum, karen, is really cool too. she's this ex mgs girl. really nice. actually i thot she looked rather homely at first (not as pretty and fashionable as some of the other ladies there). but she's really cool. witty. funny. pretty vibrant. but not really like loud or anything. and this is the thing. the way she corrects her children is really amazing (she's a christian :)). aaron and keith being boys are active but unlike most boys, they're extremely well behaved. the way she teaches them u know she loves her kids yet she's not overbearing and puts like strict rules on them. she jokes with them teases them. i want to have a relationship with my kids like this next time. and i want sons like keith and aaron (i've thot of some nice boys names i'm gonna name my kids.. sorry guys i hope i don't scare u but oh well).

but there was another mother there for privacy purposes (or rather bad example) let's call her msD ( i can't call any of those ladies aunties they're all way too young). she also has two sons who are really cute too. but unbelievably unbelievable. ok maybe they've been thru alot for such young ages (10 and 7), their parents are separated and stuff. but woah this momma is strict. like don't do this don't do that. and unlike karen she'd much rather hang out with her friends than with her kids (karen manages both i know not how). well she's been thru alot too. but anw her older son is soo toned down like bored and lifeless while the other one keeps getting himself into all sorts of trouble although he's another smart kid.

so kids (and parents), law doesn't work. grace and love does. and when there's grace and love, it's makes a pretty amazing relationship.

ok on to the next thing.. yeah... as i was saying today's thursday. and my submission is on monday. so basically cos i have alot to submit i was really stressed and totally inefficient and ineffective. wasted 4 days on one thing. was really contemplating whether anot to go for bs. knowing it means a couple of hours less sleep. but praise God. as much as the message was for everyone (that's what they all sayy), it was really for me. lol. deaconess lian preached about Christ IN ME the hope of glory. and extracted from the story of gideon. IDENTIFY yourself with the finished work of Christ as how Jesus did with our sins that He became sin. and that's how hearing becomes having. it really gave me peace in my heart. and like even tho i don't really know if i can finish and still not look like a zombie, i'm no longer worried and frustrated and sighing all the time (seriously!). so today charis has become good success, wisdom, fast hands, favour, energy, beautiful skin and much more. all because Christ is in me.

honestly i'm still slowly being convinced. as much as my spirit leaps, there are still a couple of slight worries. but i shall continue to meditate. watch this space cos my project submission and crit isn't here yet. so more testimonies to come.

really spending time in the house of God makes a world of difference.

next a gift by the grace of God. my printer/scanner thingy. yesss :) like i said it's another story. but i've mentioned this b4 (my other thing that i desire hasn't manifested yet) but this was one thing i really needed and wanted.
and to cut a long story short,
i waited too long.
i used self-effort.
it didn't work.
i gave up.
i asked God to take care of it.
and one weekend after BOOM! new printer scanner.

God has a funny sense of humour but He's still really good. to me.

ok as for the other things i can't rem wad i wanted to say. praise God also lol.

project success here i come.. and next week IT'LL BE OVER!