Day 3

it's tues now... 3 days since it happened... i've been really blessed... doing things i never thot i could do... staying at my cousin's house... since sunday until wed... i have like 6 younger cousins, one younger bro n one older cousin... and although i wasn't actually put in charge of them it seems like it... taking care of 7 kids (ok so two of them are already teens) isn't wad u would call easy especially when they just love arguing and playing with fire.. literally. yup but i've been doing tt, making sure they dun do stupid things... kinda like preparation for my 5 kids next time.. haha... but no my kids won't argue so much and will not play so much with fire.. and at the wake thing i have to put out more food and clean up... the thing is the boys dun hafta do it if they dun want to (chinese tradition.. old mentality) only the girls have to and there are only 2 of us... but tts ok... not tt i'm the kind of person who usually endures this old mentality thing... but i realised tt when u love someone, u'd want to do things for them... no need to ask... things tt i wldn't do 4 anyone in this world, i'm doing 4 my family now... even my parents are amazed... and since i'm like the second oldest cousin there are so many things i have to do... but u noe the adults have so much more to do... so i juz do my part... really God carrying me thru... i was really shag last nite after the whole thing... but praise God... n my cuz lent me his very cool mp3/radio/discman... dunno wad it is... but i've been able to listen to christian music and going into the presence of the Lord alot... the promise in the bible abt running to the throne of grace and obtaining mercy and grace is really coming to 4 me.. i've been able to obtain strength.. love.. patience... everything i need and want...

:) thanks to all the pple who've been seeing me thru this too... God sent u guys... tchr Beth 4 her wisdom n cara.. dora also... love this babe... lydia.. denise.. yx.. thanks girls... my bros joel n samuel... samuel thanks 4 always being there... jeremy.. man of God... thanks 4 calling n caring... gr8 fren... shawn, sean, hengster and everyone i missed out... thanks really... from the bottom of my heart... love u all... thanks :) kk tts abt all... won't be around frm the 20th til the 28th so yup :) be blessed pple and have a great Christmas... Jesus loves you all!!!!!!!