crushes

ok.... was juz reading a frenz blog... and stumbled across a really old entry.... abt dec kinda thing... abt his crush... n tt got me thinking haha.... columnist charis at ur service... ok i think this fren will noe i'm talking abt him.. haha... cos he's the only one i think who actually reads my blog... or he's the only one who told me he does...

anyway i started thinking abt this complex thing called crushes... haha... yeah i've had millions... really... the longest was abt 6 mths... and the shortest was abt 5 mins... many of my good frenz... all my guy frenz haha noe tt i'll never call a guy or even sms unless its really impt or i had to ask sumthing... never.. haha... tt was a little diversion... one of my best gal frenz denise noes practically all the crushes i've had.. haha everytime i haf sumthing to say or gush abt i call her... the strange thing abt girls... yeah... and altho i daydream n think and gush alot i never make the 1st move.. haha... not even signal or hint... i'm a real good actress... yeah so i thot abt it... its quite funny yeah if i like a guy n spend so much time thinking abt him but won't even give the subtlest hint... haha... even i think i'm funny... k i'm back cos i realised that i hadn't completed this revelation... but within this short time i've learnt alot n i'm here to share... i've recently gotten to be the being liked, the liker and someone who's close to someone who's a liker... got it? haha oh n i've been "mediator" before (altho we noe that mediator isn't as mediator seems haha) but not really someone who's close to a likee... cos usually the guys like me... AHAHA... i'm kidding... so now i present u all the different aspects: 1)the liker: this one i dun hafta say... like i said above... it's crazy when we like someone... when the person smiles at us the world seems brighter and happier all of a sudden but when tt person doesn't smile or frowns the world comes crashing down... i've tried to be realistic about the guy that i like... like no charis it's just a crazy infactuation.. but no... infactuation's cruel... no such thing as sensible infactuation understand? haha... 2)the liked: haha this i've experienced alot too.. haha... no lar... but a few times to my knowing... other times i din noe until like alot later... haha... there have been times when the guy likes me and i like him back (dangerous... seriously been there done that if u dunno wad i'm talking abt 2 words: emotional attachment) of cos it's a ego booster and an honour to be liked... but pls be subtle... tt's the way to start at least... haha... i like the subtle in such things (in case u wanna woo me next time...)... 3)ok mediator... pple if anyone says "oh i help u call lah" pls be wise... and noe tt the person probably has a crush on tt guy too or gal k... haha... yes ive done that too... not the nicest thing ever cos pple end up getting hurt... n u just show urself to be silly and immature... but oh well i haven't done tt since sec 1? so ok... ive matured.. hehe... 4)this is the one rite that gave me perspective into all the rest... this is the more mature one... haha... in a sense... but it's a revelation u have to catch on ur own so this is just for you to think abt and catch ur revelation... don't u realise that not all childhood sweethearts grow up and get married and live happily ever after? notice that usually crushes don't last very long? infactuations u can call them... but u noe wad? i actually don't really like that word... seems very teenagerish and fickle... and sounds worse than the normal crush rite? but basically why sometimes our crushes are so short is because (at least for a few pple i noticed..) we just like qualities in the person... it may be just one or two but when it shines oh it shines haha... yeah n sometimes the qualities outshine the person... so u think u like the person but actually it's just some qualities u like... yup tts all for now... honestly i think crushes are perfectly fine (take it from me haha) but just don't be too quick to work on them n think tt tts the person ur gonna marry or wad k? cos when it's the time u'll noe...