The call

A few months ago, Zuming kor kor asked me to consider joining the stewards to take care of the sec 1s in teenzeal. No way! I thought.

Firstly, I have to say that in the beginning of sec 4 til about November, I didn’t really like p6s and the sec 1s (ok the girls). Those that I knew I pretty much liked but I didn’t really bother getting to know them unless they wanted to get to know me. I thought they were silly children who thought they were very mature but actually aren’t. Guys weren’t so bad because they were really still very childish. No offence to anyone k. Basically I had a problem with the younger people.

Then around camp, I didn’t realise this at that time but I started liking them. I started having patience with them especially the boys cos they are really very cute haha. But talking to the girls was still beyond me and it was hard especially if you already had this mindset against them.

So when Zuming kor kor asked me to consider, obviously I didn’t. I didn’t want to go. I knew that the people I would be working with weren’t the guys but had to be the girls because they didn’t have enough girl stewards. And I would have to leave my beloved LINK and all my good friends and have less time working with them. I’d have to start all over again. But suddenly as well, a lot of people started telling me to consider the stewards. They started seeing things I couldn’t. They saw how the younger ones “gravitated” around me. They saw how much favour I had with them. I knew I was favoured but to me it wasn’t a big deal. But one day, I decided I really had to seek God about it so I set aside one whole week completely devoted to seeking God on whether I should move to the stewards (I’m not in school because I’m waiting for the poly to start. 6 months of holiday! Woo!). The more time I spent in God’s presence, the more the desire came to join the stewards. As I was talking to Denise and Lydia, my two very good friends, on two separate occasions, I just would suddenly start sharing with them what I wanted to do in the stewards even though I wasn’t there yet. My desire was to watch these young people whom God loved so much grow up into fine men and women of God. To guide them and let them be accountable to me so that they wouldn’t make the same mistakes as I did. To lead them to Daddy and just love them. There were really a lot of things I suddenly wanted to do. So because no matter how much I tried to shrug the feeling, I knew it was my call. The giftings (favour, grace, patience and especially love) were already there. After that the desire just came. See God always makes sure if it’s your call, the giftings will come and as you delight yourself in Him, He will give you the desires of your heart. Then everything started falling into place, Laoda called me aside one day and told me that he had decided to move me to the stewards!

So on Sunday was my 1st unofficial day at the stewards. Sadly I learnt that this batch of sec 1s was graduating. I did get to know them fortunately. And I introduced myself too. Then they had some free time just to talk to each other then Charissa came back and gave me a bit of advice about these girls. The reason the girls and the guys are separated is because the guys are too childish; they won’t sit next to the girls. The girls are too “mature” they don’t want to play games. Anyway she told me to give the girls some time to warm up to me because they were more independent and weren’t so forward to trust people. After she briefed me, some of the girls just started asking me questions about me without me even asking them anything! And the one sitting next to me told me, “I’m glad you’re here. When you’re not here, it’s very boring but today was fun.” I was totally stunned. And I knew that it was surely God. They’re still abit shy but I believe soon they’ll let me learn to love them as younger sisters.

From someone who didn’t like them to someone who could love them, it was definitely the work of God. In your case it may not be working with younger youths but maybe a job or anything. If it’s your call, surely the giftings will follow and everything that touches your path will definitely fall into place. It’s really just letting God. I haven’t officially started but I’m really excited. Thank you Lord!