No Confidence in the flesh


Hehe my revelation from the Smith Wigglesworth Devotional. YES! I just bought myself a copy with the 50 bucks I found in my room (I’ve found 200 b4 haha yup very very blessed financially without working for it). It is fantastic. Very simply put and easy to understand yet full of power. Yesterday I got my O level results. I got 14 not the 6 that I was confessing for… kinda disappointed but I’m starting to feel satisfied. After all it’s the 1st time I’ve done so well… haha… seriously… if u ever thot I was like top class student you’re totally wrong. I’m actually not much of the studying kind and my results have never been that great except for a few exceptions where I totally grasped whatever I was doing and suddenly by God’s grace my grades shot sky-high… well out of this I learnt a lot and I believe it’s worth sharing.


I gotta say I improved for my sciences by two grades, my eng n math constant… but it’s the humanities that is the thing I wanna share about. I’m not much of a humans person I prefer math. And obviously I don’t usually do that well for them… but this time I really expected to do well for hist/ss combined humans. Why? When I was studying the night before the two papers, I hit spot on the topics. For both history and social studies, I studied only three topics fully each and these six topics were the structured essay questions… those that I didn’t study didn’t come out. The other humans subject I do is pure geog. This has always been a horrible subject. Since sec 3 I never once did well in fact it was mostly failing and when I passed it was very minimal… but I studied anyway. REALISE I STUDIED. Didn’t have a good time but I still did. So obviously if you were me you would be banging more on hist/ss than geog rite? Yup tt’s wad happened to me. I thot there was no hope for my geog and more hope for my hist/ss but guess wad? I got a C5 for combined humans. But an A2 for geog! I wasn’t even expecting above a B4 for my geog k… Imagine my shock. I was really shocked. Even my mum was. My worst subject became one of my best. The subject I was banging on became my worst subject. Firstly I have to say again glory to God… I wouldn’t have been able to get an A2 without Him…


But the point I want to make is that I was very focused on my combined humans. I didn’t even give one thought to my geog. Because my focus in the case of my combined humans was on “sure can do well because I hit the topics self effort” thinking… I thought I was trusting God for it for the extra grace for the A1. but I was actually focused on doing well for it BECAUSE I studied the right topics. Secondly, realise God can work only when we let go. I didn’t even consider my geog yet God gave me an A2. Get it? I can’t really explain it but I hope you catch this revelation. And this doesn’t mean you don’t study UNDERSTAND? I STUDIED! I studied for geog in fact a lot. But because I put no confidence in my paper God’s grace was able to shine thru. I hope you guys never make the same mistake as me… It was rather costly.


Just wanna say that if you ever are unable to have the God-like faith to believe for good results, just know that God is faithful and can give you better than if you try on your own. And totally don’t think about the paper anymore cos worry restricts God’s blessings and secondly, when your focus is wrong you don’t get what you really want. Focus on the ONE who can give you what you want and that’s JESUS.


Be blessed!