bad day. good dayS

hello... long time no update... lol... well here i am... back again... well really praise God man... as u all noe or now will i believe very very strongly in enjoying life to the fullest. and i hate bad days... tho they rarely happen to me. well last week i had a miserable time in sch on thurs. thank God the week was ending. i had a large argument wif this guy in my class and it got me v angry n because of all the siding tt was going on in the class it made me feel betrayed and angry. i was so angry and hurt bcos after that bad things basically happened thru out the day that i blamed God. i was alone waiting for my dad to pick me up (and he was quite late as well) and i was telling God "if i can't even rely on anyone, how would i noe i can trust in you? i don't care anymore. i can't even tell that ur there for me. what's the point?" i was so so hurt and so mad i wasn't even thinking straight. wasn't even willing to care abt anything that i actually had tears filling up my eyes and i was miserable. miserable state miserable looking. horrid feeling. then when i went home i was so mad i was just typing in my journal and suddenly i heard a voice say," how dare he touch a child of God." and as night came my anger and resentment started to lift tho i was still extremely hurt. and u noe how it is that when ur feeling all crappy and u tell yourself there isn't a God, if you're a true believer there's something there that just keeps reminding us that there is. and i couldn't shake that. but the next day was not that good either in sch. i was sick of my class sick of everything but i couldn't pon sch cos i had a presentation to present. then after that i met lydia and i was feeling quite a whole lot better even when i din run back to Daddy's arms. cos for the hurting God is the comforter. and it's so amazing when He's there b4 u even call Him or even want to.

then that night, pastor spoke on evil day good days! i was amazed cos that was basically what i was facing! he shared abt the 13th day from ruth. that even when people are trying to destroy us God can always turn it for our good and it shall be good.

but when i went to sch on mon (yest), it was still a miserable day altho i was slightly happier and getting along wif everyone (except tt feller) and my project is like going to be due next mon! and i hadn't even decided which idea i was going to use. i was super nervous n anxious. and i din even get anything done except cut a few pieces of wood out of which i can't use some cos i just cut them cos i was bored. when u see frenz projects coming up so nicely it's v scary when urs is still standing at ground zero. and i knew i was stressed. so i rushed home immediately and took a bathe -but it din work. i slept -but it din work. i had dinner-but that also din work. so i decided i would just rest and not do a single thing but write out my notes in my church notebook cos i lost my church notebook for a few days (which now to think of it was divine) so i was reading as i wrote and suddenly bryan picked up the bible and read "come you who are thirsty come to the waters (isaiah 53:1)" oh man! and suddenly i realised how dry i was. but as i was writing my notes as well i had an impression on my heart. abt exceeding great reward. and i found the verse in Gen 15:1 where God said to Abram,"Fear not, Abram, i shall be your shield and your exceeding great reward." the amazing thing is that it's chapter 15 and 15 is the no for rest which i just wrote in my notes! i was so surprised and suddenly i remembered all i had to do was rest. and God becomes our exceeding great reward. and i remembered that i want to ask God big and not be afraid of doing so so i told God i want good days. in school especially. amen. and guess what? today was a fantastic day and i had a great time which was completely stressfree. my classmates were funnier than usual. even my v good fren commented that today was unusually fun and stressless. i had favour wif my lecturers that they helped me come up with some ideas to hold up the flooring and all that. i did like 300% more work than i did yest. praise God!

got another thing actually but i shall save tt for another time lol... be blessed yeah? and rem whenever u feel alone or lonely God's loving u more than u noe and much more than u need. and He will draw u back first and He is a good God!