Relationships... geewhiz

the funny thing about this week is that all my *solved in Jesus name* problems are all about relationships. and the thing is that to me the most important things are relationships.

firstly my classmates. wah Jesus grace grace to me in all it's abundance man... we were having Critical Reasoning skills. it's actually my fav class cos i love discussing issues. but it always leaves me so sad realising that my classmates have such ideas abt life. like we were discussing sex. ok tt was straightforward but wadever. anw i said that it should be kept within marriage but guess wad? almost my whole class doesn't think so! yeah their values really scare me. and i've realised the need for Godly support in my life. in school. esp. the friends that i used to think were friends i realised are just pple who i can laugh with share jokes with. but it kinda opened my eyes to realise that beyond that we don't have anything to say cos our values are so different. Daddy..

next. i realised that when guys like me i don't like it. i think i'm unusual. seriously. i haven't met a guy who has liked me n i'm ok with it. i tend to run away even if the guy was a friend. tt day i was talking to constance and we were saying that tt was our hedge of protection. really praise God.. cos i think w/o it i might have given my heart away many times and gotten it broken just as much. yeah so best thing would be, guys, don't like me. lol. but i noe that the day i meet my future husband (tall dark and handsome and glorious and everything i've dreamt of and much more in Jesus name) when he falls for me i won't run. yeah kaiyan said tt n i was like woah man.. yes praise God!

and last of all and most dear to my heart. my gal friends. the strangest thing has been happening to me. i feel like i've lost a couple of good frenz. ok actually maybe one. yeah this person was like my all time best friend whom i really cherished alot u noe. but suddenly it seems like we're not so close anymore? like she has so many frenz now that she loves to hang out with so much more than me. pple and even leaders have been telling me there are some frenz for seasons.. and i think it's true. but i'm not gonna be some liar and say that i'm strong and it doesn't hurt me. it did at least. but praise God for other friendships that have been deepening. yeah i was just thinking about it that day, and suddenly something snapped. altho it still hurt i realised that what she did didn't matter. cos i realised that we can't let pple determine who we are. we can't let situations make us stop loving ourselves. and i realised that Daddy wasn't letting me go to feel lousy about myself. to become someone that i wasn't. it hasn't been easy but i noe my God. He loves me and won't let me down. won't let me get hurt or dented. yeah amen. i've realised that when ur down, it's like the hardest thing to see Jesus there but He's right there beside you when u need Him. wow i'm precious to my Daddy. and so are u..

let go. let Daddy.
i'm His beloved