a new revelation on Jesus and Peter.

HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! praise Jesus! as you all know (ok now you noe) the story of peter has always made a deep impact on me for a reason that stands above the rest. because i make stupid mistakes like peter.

aw sorry for the interruption my daddy just make lemon syrup for me... aw....

k so back to that.. i make stupid mistakes like peter. i boast of myself like peter (in Jesus name that's like all past) and i don't have a habit of resting on people's (namely Jesus) bosoms. for the sake of my easiness reread that and change all present tense to past. praise God.

the best is that Jesus loves me. lol which is why when i fall He personally comes to pick me up. like peter.

ok so tonight i went for my campus cg FINALLY. praise God cos it was really His timing and His confidence that make me feel not awkward. it was the first time for alot of pple as well including our new cgl and stuff so praise God. imagine if i hadn't gone! i would have missed this new revelation on my beloved peter story!

ok so the cgl, steven, was pointing us in the direction of peter and his denial and what happened after. i was so happy. so anw someone asked a qs. then sean, the new cgl soon, shared this (which had actually been sort of stopped me from getting full revelation of the story): the part you know Jesus asked Peter, "do you love me?" the love there is agape. which is the God kind of love. divine love. and peter replied "yes Lord i love you" the love there is NOT agape!! oh my LORRDDD!!! do u noe when i heard that i got so excited!!!!!! argh!!!! the love there was philia which is a platonic kinda love. love for a friend thayer's says.

and all three times Jesus asked him it was agape. but peter could only philia the Lord. then at the end peter said "Lord, thou knowest all things; thou knowest that I love thee" in my translation (or rather sean's since he said it) "Lord you know that the only love for you is as a friend". i went mad. haha. sort of. u noe me i keep cool outside then when u really noe me i go mad. praise God. and Jesus said follow me.

as i was waiting for my dad to pick me up i was reading the last part and peter looked at john and said how about john? knowing that john had done the right thing at the right time and he had not. and Jesus said "If I desire him to remain until I come, what is that to you? You follow Me." in my translation that says, "why are you comparing? what does that matter to you? YOU (YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU) follow me."

now if you read the story this way, it flows so much better. at least it has for me. i was wondering all along why on earth did Jesus ask peter if he love him? wouldn't that be boasting in himself again? praise God for revelation. ok so it wasn't mine. but doesn't matter. lol. anw i also learnt another thing so so sooo important that really made an impact. if Jesus says i can move a mountain, then i can. just believe. do i really believe it? (honestly i don't). so i'm learning too i noe. and i learnt that sometimes it's the smallest things. like when we don't get something, we disqualify ourselves by being envious and act as if we haven't gotten it by the same Daddy God who gave it to that person. thank you Jesus you teach me. by grace. no other way but grace for me amen!