the importance of Godly friends, caregroup and God meeting me..

blessing: caregroup, Godly friends, and a God who loves me so intensely He ALWAYS comes down to my level.

i am really grateful to God for cg.. i noe in dare i have rhema which really rocks.. but there always comes a time and place where you need your own Godly group of friends your age you know what i mean? a couple of months back i had desire to go for campus cg.. for the main reason of making friends (no not with cute guys only) and just to receive and be a youth again.

i haven't really "been a youth" since i joined CREW (which was plainly called ushers then) and became a peer leader. not that i'm complaining, cos it's really a privilege to serve and an even greater one to serve as a leader. (Privilege vs Right)

and i suppose i also wanted something preached to my level. well at first it was quite weird going but somehow i always loved it (although i wasn't always really regular due to other commitments).. and before tonight's cg i was really excited about going.. like i really couldn't wait to go. i even pestered my cgl (sean who's really anointed) by messaging him a couple of times whether there was cg.

and i was just excited.

so when tonight came and p&w started, i just felt within me to just see Jesus. and i asked Him to meet me where i was ( i was lost), to shine light in my darkness. well darkness was really dark i couldn't see a thing. it wasn't like a dry period or anything it was more like floating. ok honestly i felt like i couldn't trust God for anything cos the things i wanted i wanted now. and i didn't want to wait for God (who can take really long sometimes but of cos it's the best time.. and when you do get it it was really worth waiting for) i'm not that patient. i mean if i want it and really God's taking too long i'll just get it myself.

except there are some things i really can't get myself no matter how hard i try. and being too impatient to wait i just blamed God for everything in my life. tell me to count the small blessings? nooo. they're not good enough.

and i got tired. tired from waiting. during p&w, i really felt the presence of God and as i asked him to shine the light in my life, sean my anointed cgl, suddenly called me and spoke over me (only me). and it was really the word in season for my life. i didn't even realise that i started tearing.. but after he said all that, God being ever faithful to me followed on and continued telling me things that i not only needed to hear but i wanted to hear.

really besides that, i've always wanted to be singled out of the crowd like "charis there's anointing all over you lift your hands i want to pray for you" and stuff and it never happened to me except once. so it happened and i'm so happy it did! (but my eyes stay put on Jesus)

and the cg message was again in season. i still remember last last season being that all things work together for my good. and last season being God covers my back. and this season is really God my Provider. which is what sean said.. except i din noe til he said it. cos i couldn't see it. and cg message was on knowing that i am the favourite of God. that means i'm no. 1. not no.2. and why it's so important.

i dunno why i was sitting there like emotions just running all over the place. feeling so refreshed and so happy and so amazed at Daddy's love for me.

He REALLY came to meet me!

i mean even in cg, expectations are important. when we expect out of God anything, now for a fact i'm sure God will surely meet me. and God will not only be the Provider (Jehovah Jireh) to my needs but He'll also be the Provider to my wants :)

signing out, the one Jesus loves.

the first mention of Jehovah Jireh is in Genesis when Abraham named a place that. and that amazing place was when God brought a ram just before he sacrificed Isaac - all about Jesus again.