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NAPFA vs NS

it's quite funny cos after a few years of no PE.. i suddenly have NAPFA!! and my brother bryan has been called up by the NS for vocation assessment as the time draws nearer for him to serve the nation.

both of us are PES A... (for me, A's for absent)

for me it brought me back to secondary school days.
for him it's bringing him forward into something new.

my dad and i have been cracking NS jokes. they're really funny but i don't think i shall put them here.

still we love our nation. and we love what it does for our boys.

Spirit vs the flesh

yest they announced who was getting the lead roles and the understudies. for my role i din get either. lol. but actually i was pretty ok with it. not upset but peaceful. praise God for favour tho. cos my director and the drama director said that the votes for ours were the closest (while they actually picked who they wanted for the role) so i was welcomed to join them whenever they had rehearsals for the lead roles and vocal trainings. and some of the people i din expect came and told me they were hoping i would get it and were more upset than me about it. felt so favoured!

i thank God cos His favour's all over me whether anot i get the role whether anot the directors like me anot. it doesn't matter who on this earth likes me. it's the favour of God that matters.

but as i went home last nite, i suddenly wanted the role badly. talk about confused. but i realised that it was just my flesh. my flesh was crying out for the attention. it was crying out for the lost opportunity to sing a solo song.

i realised that it's so subtle. sometimes i don't even know that it's my flesh that's acting up. i think we're all very familiar of our flesh being the one that makes the mistakes or when we're lazy or bad, we know it's our flesh. but when it comes to the "little things" like our egos/pride (guys have ego girls have pride :) ) getting hurt or vainglorious habits it never occurs to us (ok me) that this is part of the flesh.

sometimes we say things like "part of me wants this but yet part of me want that". i believe alot of the time we have the Spirit way but we want what our flesh wants. it is weak afterall.

but i realised that the flesh is no longer a part of me! because it's dead! it died with Jesus on the cross. amen! i'm blessed. :)

Bring it on - Steven Curtis Chapman (Declaration)

I didn’t come lookin’ for trouble
And I don’t want to fight needlessly
But I’m not gonna hide in a bubble
If trouble comes for me
I can feel my heart beating faster
I can tell something’s coming down
But if it’s gonna make me grow stronger then…

Bring it on
Let the lightning flash, let the thunder roll, let the storm winds blow
Bring it on
Let the trouble come, let the hard rain fall, let it make me strong
Bring it on

Now, maybe you’re thinkin’ I’m crazy
And maybe I need to explain some things
‘Cause I know I’ve got an enemy waiting
Who wants to bring me pain
But what he never seems to remember
What he means for evil God works for good

So I will not retreat or surrender
Now, I don’t want to sound like some hero
‘Cause it’s God alone that my hope is in
But I’m not gonna run from the very things
That would drive me closer to Him
So bring it on!

Bring it on
Let the lightning flash, let thet hunder roll, let the storm winds blow
Bring it on
Let the trouble come, let it make me fall on the One who’s strong
Bring it on
Let the lightning flash, let the thunder roll, let the storm winds blow
Bring it on
Let me be made weak so I’ll know the strength of the One who’s strong
Bring it on
Bring it on

favour of God protects me like a shield

You will deliver me
Your truth will be my shield
Jesus you cover me in your Love no fear prevails..

there is one thing that i've never thanked God for and i want to today. i thank God for what Pastor Chin did on saturday with the guys - leading them in prayer and showing them how they are the pillars in the church to protect the weaker vessels. i really believe that in the days to come we'll see our young men become all that God wants them to be. like Boaz with a respect for the females and with a stand to protect the virtues of the woman he loved.

i envy those girls who have our Campus guys in their classes and around them. today i had the worst experience ever in my life. i was harrassed by a guy from my class nonstop about whether i would go out with a guy like him or like date him (as if my taste was so bad). and i ignored him and told him no and to get lost but he kept doing it and he says it's to irritate me. the hardest part to swallow was that the other guys around (we were walking to the mrt) din even protect me. i'm not gonna go on cos it's not important. not gonna give weight.

the thing was that at first i was irritated and when i came home i felt so harrassed (i think shock) that i started crying (thank God not much tho). on the bus to buy stuff with the group of them i was like "God!! now's the time when i need a man of God!! to protect me" then God showed me that He's the God that's protecting me.

and i realised if my dad or my brother heard about what happened they would seriously kick this guy's butt. i think my dad would even beat him up if he knew his darling girl was harrassed like that. and God showed me that He was more jealous and protective of my safety than my dad was. and He knew. i could never tell my dad (for fear of what he would do). come to think of it. i think God (the best Father ever) wants to beat the guy up (Holy anger style) if i can say so reverently.

Jesus you cover me in your Love no fear prevails..

like what Pastor Prince preached yest if i make light of what happened, it's placing a curse on the person and the devil. i know that this is from the devil. to throw me off. i have been so blessed by the messages Pastor Prince preached recently esp on fri BS and on sunday. i just started reading "the kiss of Heaven" by Darlene Zschech and listening to Steven Curtis Chapman's "Declaration" cd and it's amazing. today during lunch, yongjie and hogan and i were discussing the goodness of God and encouraging one another in the Lord. so i know that this is just a trial.

i believe that my God is a good God. He's my Boaz and my protector. amen.

p.s. come to think of it it's just an outside thing! yay! the devil cannot get me from the inside! cos that's where Jesus is dwelling!